Having Baby

These days issue that I encounter often is 'married couple trying to have their own children'. If I think of this issue, I will consider myself as a lucky individual as I got pregnant quite fast. I conceived Dave just like 1 month after the wedding. Thus, I don't have to face the pressure from friends, family, and everyone that I assume will keep asking, "Are you pregnant already?", if am still not conceived after months from the wedding day.

I don't have to face all the stress to consult with the specialists, worried if am going to bear my own children, or what will my in-law think if am still not pregnant yet. Yes, so many worries. And yes, this will happen in my surrounding as it's still the culture that we have. Lucky for those people who don't have to face this kind of culture.

Actually, I always wonder. What is the best thing to have? To have your own children or to adopt? I always think that it's not easy to raise a kid. From the newborn till God take me with Him. Furthermore, there is baby blue. Worried if the kid will do well at school, what he is gonna do when he grow up, can he handle the world, is he going to turn out good or bad, and so much more worries. And it seems like armagedon is aproaching...

Furthermore, once we have kids, things will not be the same anymore. We can't just simply move from one place to another. There is opportunity cost in chosing what we love to do. And such and such. Not to include the disagreements how you and your partner ways to raise your children.

Some people think that if we have children then they will take care of us when we get older. If we don't have one, then we'll be lonely in our retiring age. However, if our kids got to take care of us, then he or she will lose freedom to move also.

I love Dave, and am worried what he will turn out as one day. I am trying so hard to make him the best.
Will I be able to fulfill all his needs? Give him the best things. There are so many questions and if statements in my mind that I couldn't answer yet.